Friday, May 28, 2010

F*** it Friday

I was asked to change my ways and I have done this but changing has not been good enough. I have been asked to be a better person I did and still failed. If you will look for faults in a human; you will definitely find them. If you look for a reason to make someone to go then you have will achieve them. If you look for a something to bad for a person you will succeed. I say to this is it. I am done with this I enjoy your friendship, I enjoy what we had but I don't think I can do this any longer. I hate being the enemy. I hate being the one that is constantly wrong. I am not 100% bad, I will admit I am not 100% good either and I admit to the world I have done wrong and to this I apologize....

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

What are you doing?

What are you doing?

Ask me anything, even anonymously

Why do you go by the name J Dawg?

Becuz of business people who try to google mi name

Ask me anything, even anonymously

Do you have a crush on ne of ur friends right now? ;)

What kind of blanket do you go to sleep with?

i have a big black and grey blanket i sleep with

Ask me anything, even anonymously

Do u think cows are yummie?? =P

What would you normally be doing if you weren’t answering questions on

How often do u go to the movie theatre?

Would you rather undergo two root canals in one day or break your foot?

What are you doing?

What was your favorite birthday?

Ask me anything, even anonymously

would you fuck a clown or a midget first?

Do u keep ur room messy or are u a neat freak?

I am very messy but I try to keep everything clean when needed tho

Ask me anything, even anonymously

Thursday, May 6, 2010

What’s the most spontaneous thing you have ever done and why?

Honestly I don't know or remember? I am usually spontaneous a lot of the time. My life motto is expect the unexpected with me.

Ask me anything, even anonymously

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Do you pee in the shower?

If you were given the chance to experience what it is like to be deaf (provided you aren't already) for a day, would you take it?

Just a day yes. and to be blind too as long as it was for a day

Ask me anything, even anonymously

If you could choose to know any ONE thing about the future, what would you want to know?

1 of my favorite poems of the lord.

Footprints in the Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one only.

This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said to the Lord,

“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?”

The Lord replied, “The years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you.”

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

I don't know anymore

I try not to let this bother me. I try not to let it get to me. Maybe if I don't think about it then I can get on with life. But it's not fair to me to ignore the problem and let it fester inside me. To let it grow within it is a pain that you cannot even imagine. I have tried to fix it but I have failed. I have tried to make it work but I have failed. I don't think I can try anymore.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Solitude Sunday

I am sitting inside of a Starbucks near my home. No one knows my name, no one knows my problems, no one knows what bothers me at night. It's peaceful here it's a change of pace from normal life. I can set my mind as ease and be free. Even if it is only 30 minutes. I just sit here without a care in the world at this moment. On this day of rest from the Lord ("King of Kings") I think I have found a small piece of solitude.