I just can't understand why my life is so messed up. I try to be the best person. I try to love and be loved. I try not let ones I care for be hurt but it seem like I fail. I have no feeling for you. I have no feeling for me. I have no feeling at all.
My salvation to this is that I'm able to escape to the fiction but when it goes away life is there staring you in the face. It saddens me that my life has come to this; to know that I can get no better. It depresses me that no one will understand me when I explain it to them. It angers me that I will never have anyone make my pain go away.