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Today I thought I was having a good day until it hit me that I am missing something in my life. I am missing something that makes me completely happy. Something that would make me complete. I can't understand why I cannot obtain it? Most others get it and don't want it or refuse to be responsible with it. It angers me. It sadden me.

I want to be alone, I want to be away from all of this since I cannot obtain my joy. I am desperately asking. I am begging you. I cannot do this to anyone else. I don't want anyone to feel what I feel.

I apologize to everyone. I am sorry to everyone. I am not whom you want me to be. I am not fulfilling my potential. I am sorry.